My Life Without Me

A lazy Sunday afternoon.. A click of the remote.. MM2 and My Life Without Me

The movie said some very important things about life! It seems our whole life is directed towards keeping away from death. We don't think of it as something that would happen to us. We always want to buy the new clothes and especially those that we'll fit into when we lose weight. We want to eat the good food. But when you know you're going to die it won't matter anymore. You stop thinking, looking at the colours.

Like everyone else who might read this blog, I don't think of myself as someone who is going to die soon. Hell, I've been planning my marriage and kids for the longest time (honest confession).

That didn't stop me from thinking though!! (Yes, it's in my nature!!) I've stopped talkin to some people. For so long now, we've even stopped acknowledging each other's existence. Weren't we rash when we were younger? Aren't we always going to be? The matters of the heart are the most fragile and yet treated with such rigidity. I wonder how we give up on people so easily. I feel like I've been giving up on people my whole life!!

What's written on our tombstone & for those of us who aren't going to have one is going to be the only memory of us when we're gone. It won't matter then why we fought. It won't matter then what we looked like. It won't matter, none of it will. Some of us will have memories. Some of us will try hard to forget them. And the others will wish we'd made some time to make them. But we'll be gone.

May be some things are predestined. May be some things are just fate. May be there are signs flying all over the place. And may be there is something like karma. I don't know. I don't have the answers. But I don't even have the questions. Acceptance! funny word.

I'll leave a letter titled:
Things I didn't say to you - 'cuz may be I didn't want to
Things I'd never say to you - 'cuz may be you didn't want me to